Johnny Got His Gun

In the first three chapters, we find out Joe is very sick. He is constantly going in and out of memories. One of the first memories we experience with Johnny was of him going back to his house to after his father died. He says he continues to have this bad dream. Later he begins to remember his mother singing while she was preparing her jam and baking fresh bread. He is always slipping in and out of reality, and is very confused about the time he is in. He also just found out he was deaf, and he was missing his arms. Joe is extremely sick, and does not really know what is happening to him. He compares it to drowning because he keeps trying to fight it and get better, but then he gets pulled right back down, and there seems to be no hope for surviving. He will be feeling ok, and then all of the sudden he gets pulled back down to the slumps again. Also, he is frustrated with the fact that he is trapped. He cant do anything with his hands because they are gone. He tries to talk to people, but he can't communicate because he is deaf. He is just in a situation that shows no hope of getting better, and this is extremely frusterating to Joe.