Bell Jar 9-10

When Esther returns to she is really weird. She goes through a phase where she doesn't want the dried blood on her phase to fall off, because she likes it there, and likes sort of the idea of what happened. She is also very irritated and sort of lazy when she returns. She sits and just watches the woman with the baby for a while, and then proceeds to go and lay down in her bed. When she is in the bed her phone keeps ringing, and she very angerly gets up. When her friend Jody is on the other line, she shortly tells her she didn't get in the class, and she doesn't want to stay with her. After that she starts writing a story, which she quickly runs out of things to say. Then she goes through 20 other possibly things she could spend her summer doing. In a period of around 3 hours, she goes from writing a short story, to wanting to spend her summer in Germany until she can speak both German and English perfectly. She is extremely indesisive once she gets back to Boston, and is also in a bad mood. This could be because of what happened with Marco. He was a complete jerk to her, and pushed her into the mud, and ripped her dress. This would explain why she was short tempered.